Mommy... Johnny brought a gun to school,
He told his friends that it was cool,
And when he pulled the trigger back,
It shot with a great crack.
Mommy, I was a good girl, I did what I was told,
I went to school, I got straight A's, and I even got the gold!
But Mommy, when I went to school that day,
I never said good-bye,
I'm sorry Mommy, I had to go, But Mommy, please don't cry.
When Johnny shot
the gun, He hit me and another,
And all because Johnny, Got the gun from his older brother.
Mommy, please tell Daddy; That I love him very much,
And please tell Chris; my boyfriend; That it wasn't just a crush.
And tell my little sister; That she is the only one now,
And tell my dear sweet grandmother; I'll be waiting for her now, And
tell my wonderful friends; That they always were the best;

Mommy, I'm not the first, I'm no better than the rest.
Mommy, tell my teachers; I won't show up for class,
And never to forget this, And please don't let this pass.
Mommy, why'd it have to be me? No one deserves this,
Mommy, warn the others, Mommy I left without a kiss.
And Mommy tell the doctors; I know they really did try,
I think I even saw a doctor, Trying not to cry.
Mommy, I'm slowly dying, With a bullet in my chest,
But Mommy please remember, I'm in heaven with the rest.
Mommy I ran as
fast as I could,
When I heard that crack, Mommy, listen to me if you would,
I wanted to go to college; I wanted to try things that were new,
I guess I'm not going with Daddy, On that trip to the new zoo
I wanted to get married, I wanted to have a kid,
I wanted to be an actress, Mommy, I wanted to live
But Mommy I must go now, The time is getting late,
Mommy, tell my Chris, I'm sorry but I had to cancel the date.
I love you Mommy, I always have, I know; you know it's true, And Mommy all
I wanted to say is,"Mommy, I love you."

***In Memory of The Columbine Students Who Were Lost***
Please if you would,
Pass this around,
I'd be happy if you could,
Don't smash this on the ground.
If you pass this on,
Maybe people will cry,
Just keep this in your heart,
For the people who didn't get to say "Good-bye.

If tomorrow starts without me,
And I'm not there to see,
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn't cry
The way you did today,
While thinking of the many things,
We didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me,
As much as I love you,
And each time that you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too;
But when tomorrow starts without me,
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name,
And took me by the hand,
And said my place was ready,
In heaven far above,
And that I'd have to leave behind
All those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye
For all my life, I'd always thought,
I didn't want to die.
I had so much to live for,
So much left yet to do,
It seemed almost impossible,
That I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays,
The good ones and the bad,
The thought of all the love we shared,
And all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday,
Just even for a while,
I'd say good-bye and kiss you
And maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized,
That this could never be,
For emptiness and memories,
Would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things,
I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,
My heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through heaven's gates,
I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me,

From His great golden throne,
He said, "This is eternity,
And all I've promised you."
Today your life on earth is past,
But here life starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow,
But today will always last,
And since each day's the same way
There's no longing for the past.
You have been so faithful,
So trusting and so true.
Though there were times
You did some things
You knew you shouldn't do.
But you have been forgiven
And now at last you're free.
So won't you come and take my hand
And share my life with me?
So when tomorrow starts without me,
Don't think we're far apart,
For every time you think of me,
I'm right here, in your heart.

Girl: Do i ever cross ur mind

Boy: No
Girl: Do you like me?
Boy: Not really
Girl: Do you want me?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you cry if I left?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you live for me?

Boy: No
Girl: Would you do anything for me?

Boy: No
Girl: Choose--me or ur life
Boy: my life
The girl runs away in shock and pain and the boy runs after her and says...
Boy: The reason you never cross my mind is because you're always on my mind.
The reason why I don't like you is because I love you.
The reason I don't want you is because I need you.
The reason I wouldn't cry if you left is because I would die if you left.
The reason I wouldn't live for you is because I would die for you.
The reason why I'm not willing to do anything for you is because I would do everything for you.
The reason I chose my life is because you ARE my life

Age Doesn't Matter
Girl: hey whats up
Boy: nothing much just listening to music
Girl: i heard your getting you GED
Boy: yeah i thought it was a good idea
Girl: it is im proud of you
Boy: yeah thanks well listen i got to go bye
"Last message received 12/12/07"

Next day
Girl: hi
Boy: hi whats up
Girl: nothing much, you?
Boy: i got my GED
Girl: OMG!!! IM SO PROUD OF YOU
Boy: yeah thanks
Girl: i have to tell you something
Boy: go ahead
Girl: well i love you i always have i cared about you and your always in my heart
Boy: thats cool i love you too but your too young your 14 and im 17
Girl: but i love you age shouldn't mater
Boy: i kno u do and i love u but i found this girl and shes my age
Girl: i just thought......(crying, she logs off)

The next day the boy turns on the news and hears that a 14 year old girl cut her wrists and bled to death and wrote on the wall "Age never matters"

The boy then receives a call from the girl he chose and she says "I'm leaving you for the one i love"
That night the boy hangs himself and writes on the wall "She's right, Age doesn't matter, I love you and always will"
IF YOU AGREE THAT AGE SHOULDN'T MATTER AS LONG AS YOU LOVE THEM THEN RE-POST THIS AS Age Shouldn't Matter

I went to a party,

And remembered what you said.
You told me not to drink, Mum
So I had a sprite instead.

I felt proud of myself, 
The way you said I would,

I made a healthy choice,
That I didn't drink and drive,
Though some friends said I should.
And your advice to me was right,
The party finally ended,
And the kids drove out of sight.

I got into my car,

Sure to get home in one piece,
I never knew what was coming, Mum
Something I expected least.

Now I'm lying on the pavement,

And I hear the policeman say,
The kid that caused this wreck was drunk,
Mum, his voice seems far away.

My own blood's all around me,

As I try hard not to cry.
I can hear the paramedic say,
This girl is going to die.

I'm sure the guy had no idea,

While he was flying high,
Because he chose to drink and drive,
Now I would have to die.

So why do people do it, Mum

Knowing that it ruins lives?
And now the pain is cutting me,
Like a hundred stabbing knives.

Someone should have taught him,
That it's wrong to drink and drive.
Maybe if his parents had,
I'd still be alive.

My breath is getting shorter, Mum

I'm getting really scared.
These are my final moments,
And I'm so unprepared.

I wish that you could hold me Mum,

As I lie here and die.
I wish that I could say, 'I love you, Mum!'
So I love you and good-bye.

Coma

Blue light engulfs: Body de-sensitized
Sounds coming in
People without faces heard
Drifting along the pathways of time

An itch that cannot be scratched
Quietude never felt before
A distant land without form Floating

Cool fresh air enters in
Directly in without being reached for
Food flows through the veins without taste
Arriving where it needs sustaining the life
therein

Safe and warm No thoughts no cares
A child before birth knows those who love
On awakening it sees the faces that match the voices

The other side of the fish tank
Looking out and yet only seeing
No sense of being part rather an observer placed
No understanding of words noises made by others
Teachers perhaps or friends or both a world all its own
The first feeling of a hand on mine
Strange it is there was only imagination Now the mystery gone faces with voices and touches

In life friends are found and lost

Enemies are gained and forgotten

Love is treasured and broken

Dreams are inspired and planned

Hope is found and shared

Friends who are like sister and brothers are found

Love is rekindled

And dreams find hope again

When a dream has a hope at coming you grab it

And friends will stand by you

And if they are true friends they will never be forgotten

And they will never forget you

So make you dream come true with friend’s sisters and brothers by your side

And they will never be far from you mind

And you will never be far from theres

So take the chance and never look back

Because you will be loved and supported all the way

Memory

It’s distressing,

Seeing him stare into emptiness,

Knowing the images…

The only images he sees,

Are of his mates,

His brother,

They are gone, they have died.

Fighting in the War,

Fighting for what they thought was glory,

But death is not so glorious,

That they did not know…

Blankness in his eyes as he looks at you,

Breaks me up inside,

He’s beginning to fade,

I can see him starting to forget,

Not remembering;

It seems peaceful in some way

A nice way to leave the world;

Not remembering;

Yet when I ask him

If he will ever forget,

He just simply looks at me and says…

“The memory of War…

is forever”.

When she stares at your mouth
[ Kiss her ]
When she pushes you or hits you cuz she thinks shes stronger than you
[ Grab her and dont let go ]
When she starts cursing at you tryin to act all tuff
[ Kiss her and tell her you love her ]
When she's quiet
[ Ask her whats wrong ]
When she ignores you
[ Give her your attention ]
When she pulls away
[ Pull her back ]
When you see her at her worst
[ Tell her she's beautiful ]
When you see her start crying
[Just hold her and dont say a word ]
When you see her walking
[ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ]
When she's scared
[ Protect her ]
When she steals your favorite hat
[ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]
When she teases you
[ Tease her back and make her laugh ]
When she doesn't answer for a long time
[ reassure her that everything is okay ]
When she looks at you with doubt
[ Back yourself up ]
When she says that she likes you
[SHE REALLY DOES MORE THAN YOU COULD UNDERSTAND!!!]
When she grabs at your hands
[ Hold her's and play with her fingers ]
When she bumps into you
[ bump into her back and make her laugh ]
When she tells you a secret
[ keep it safe and untold ]
When she looks at you in your eyes
[ dont look away until she does ]
When she says it's over
[ she still wants you to be hers ]

As i lay there in your arms,
i wrote the words 'i love you' on your back
thinking you weren't paying
attention. then you looked at me and said,
" i love you too. "

---->life is a maze<----
and [ love ] is a riddle.

Her hair was up in a ponytail.
Her favorite dress tied with a bow.
Today was Daddy's Day at school,
And she couldn't wait to go.

But her mommy tried to tell her
That she probably should stay home.
Why the kids might not understand
If she went to school alone.

But she was not afraid;
She knew just what to say.
What to tell her classmates
Of why he wasn't there today.

But still her mother worried
For her to face this day alone.
And that was why, once again,
She tried to keep her daughter home.

But the little girl went to school,
Eager to tell them all
About a dad she never sees,
A dad who never calls.

There were daddies along the wall in back
For everyone to meet.
Children squirming impatiently,
Anxious in their seats.

One by one, the teacher called,
A student from the class
To introduce their daddy
As seconds slowly passed.

At last, the teacher called her name,
Every child turned to stare.
Each of them was searching
For a man who wasn't there.

"Where's her daddy at?"
She heard a boy call out.
"She probably doesn't have one,"
Another student dared to shout.

And from somewhere near the back,
She heard a daddy say,
"Looks like another deadbeat dad,
Too busy to waste his day."

The words did not offend her
As she smiled up at her Mom
And looked back at her teacher,
Who told her to go on.

And with hands behind her back,
Slowly, she began to speak.
And from the mouth, of a child,
Came words incredibly unique.

"My Daddy couldn't be here
Because he lives so far away.
But I know he wishes he could be,
Since this is such a special day.

And though you cannot meet him,
I wanted you to know
All about my daddy
And how he loves me so.

He loved to tell me stories.
He taught me to ride my bike.
He surprised me with pink roses,
And taught me to fly a kite.

We used to share fudge sundaes
And ice cream in a cone.
And though you cannot see him,
I'm not standing here alone.

"Cause my daddy's always with me
Even though we are apart.
I know because he told me,
He'll be forever in my heart."

With that, her little hand reached up
And lay across her chest,
Feeling her own heartbeat,
Beneath her favorite dress.

And from somewhere in the crowd of dads,
Her mother stood in tears,
Proudly watching her daughter,
Who was wise beyond her years.

She stood up for the love
Of a man not in her life,
Doing what was best for her,
Doing what was right.

And when she dropped her hand back down,
Staring straight into the crowd,
She finished with a voice so soft,
But its message clear and loud.

"I love my daddy very much.
He's my shining star.
And if he could, he'd be here,
But heaven's just too far.

You see, he was a fireman
And died just this past year
When airplanes hit the towers
And taught Americans to fear.

But sometimes when I close my eyes,
It's like he never went away."
And then she closed her eyes
And saw him there that day.

And to her mother's amazement,
She witnessed with surprise,
A room full of daddies and children,
All starting to close their eyes.

Who knows what they saw before them.
Who knows what they felt inside.
Perhaps for merely a second,
They saw him at her side.

"I know you're with me Daddy,"
To the silence, she called out.
And what happened next made believers
Of those once filled with doubt.

Not one in that room could explain it,
For each of their eyes had been closed.
But there, on the desk beside her,
Was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose.

And a child was blessed, if only for a moment,
By the love of her shining bright star.
And given the gift of believing
That heaven is never too far.

Month One
Mommy,
I am only 8 inches long,
but I have all my organs.
I love the sound of your voice.
Every time I hear it,
I wave my arms and legs.
The sound of your heart beat
is my favorite lullaby.

Month Two
Mommy,
today I learned how to suck my thumb.
If you could see me,
you could definitely tell that I am a baby.
I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though.
It is so nice and warm in here.

Month Three
You know what Mommy?
I'm a girl!!
I hope that makes you happy.
I want you to always be happy.
I don't like it when you cry.
You sound so sad.
It makes me sad too,
and I cry with you even though
you can't hear me.

Month Four
Mommy,
my hair is starting to grow.
It is very short and fine,
but I will have a lot of it.
I spend a lot of my time exercising.
I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes
and stretch my arms and legs.
I am becoming quite good at it too.

Month Five
You went to the doctor today.
Mommy, he lied to you.
He said that I'm not a baby.
I am a baby Mommy, your baby.
I think and feel.
Mommy, what's abortion?

Month Six
I can hear that doctor again.
I don't like him.
He seems cold and heartless.
Something is intruding in my home.
The doctor called it a needle.
Mommy, what is it? It burns!
Please make him stop!
I can't get away from it!
Mommy! HELP me!

Month Seven
Mommy,
I am okay.
I am in Jesus's arms.
He is holding me.
He told me about abortion.
Why didn't you want me Mommy?

  Highway 109
   

 A drunk man in an Oldsmobile,
They said, had run the light
That caused the six-car pileup
On 109 that night.

When broken bodies lay about
And blood was everywhere,
The sirens screamed out elegies,
For death was in the air.

A mother, trapped inside her car,
Was heard above the noise;
Her plaintive plea near split the air:
"Oh, God, please spare my boys!"

She fought to loose her pinned hands;
She struggled to get free,
But mangled metal held her fast
In grim captivity.

Her frightened eyes then focused
On where the back seat once had been,
But all she saw was broken glass and
Two children's seats crushed in.

Her twins were nowhere to be seen;
She did not hear them cry,
And then she prayed they'd been thrown free,
"Oh, God, don't let them die!"

Then firemen came and cut her loose,
But when they searched the back,
They found therein no little boys,
But the seat belts were intact.

They thought the woman had gone mad
And was traveling alone,
But when they turned to question her,
They discovered she was gone.

Policemen saw her running wild
And screaming above the noise
In beseeching supplication,
"Please help me find my boys!

They're four years old and wear blue shirts;
Their jeans are blue to match."
One cop spoke up, "They're in my car,
And they don't have a scratch.

They said their daddy put them there
And gave them each a cone
Then told them both to wait for Mom
To come and take them home.

I've searched the area high and low,
But I can't find their dad.
He must have fled the scene,
I guess, and that is very bad."

The mother hugged the twins and said,
While wiping at a tear,
"He could not flee the scene, you see,
For he's been dead a year."

The cop just looked confused and asked,
"Now, how can that be true?"
The boys said, "Mommy, Daddy came
And left a kiss for you.

He told us not to worry
And that you would be all right,
And then he put us in this car with
The pretty, flashing light.

We wanted him to stay with us,
Because we miss him so,
But Mommy, he just hugged us tight
And said he had to go.

He said someday we'd understand
And told us not to fuss,
And he said to tell you, Mommy,
He's watching over us."

The mother knew without a doubt
That what they spoke was true,
For she recalled their dad's last words,
"I will watch over you."

The firemen's notes could not explain
The twisted, mangled car
And how the three of them escaped
Without a single scar.

But on the cop's report was scribed,
In print so very fine,
An angel walked the beat tonight
On Highway 109.

 Flowers

I GOT FLOWERS TODAY...

I got flowers today.
It wasn't my birthday or any other special day.
We had our first argument last night, and he said a lot of cruel things that really hurt me.
I know he is sorry and didn't mean the things he said,
Because he sent me flowers today.

I got flowers today.
It wasn't our anniversary or any other special day.
Last night, he threw me into a wall and started to choke me.
It seemed like a nightmare. I couldn't believe it was real. I woke up this morning sore and bruised all over.
I know he must be sorry, because he sent me flowers today.

I got flowers today, and it wasn't Mother's Day or any other special day.
Last night, he beat me up again. It was much worse than all the other times.
If I leave him, what will I do? How will I take care of my kids?
What about money? I'm afraid of him and scared to leave.
But I know he must be sorry, because he sent me flowers today.

I got flowers today.
Today was a very special day. It was the day of my funeral.
Last night, he finally killed me. He beat me to death.
If only I had gathered enough courage and strength to leave him,
I would not have gotten flowers today.

Jenny was so happy
About the house they had found.
For once in her life
'twas on the right side of town.

She unpacked her things
With such great ease
As she watched her new curtains
Blow in the breeze.

How wonderful it was
To have her own room.
School would be starting;
She'd have friends over soon.

There'd be sleepovers and parties;
She was so happy.
It's just the way
She wanted her life to be.

On the first day of school,
Everything went great.
She made new friends
And even got a date!

She thought, "I want to be popular,
And I'm going to be
Because I just got a date
With the star of the team!"

To be known in this school,
You had to have clout,
And dating this guy
Would sure help her out.

There was only one problem
Stopping her fate.
Her parents had said
She was too young to date.

"Well, I won't tell them
The entire truth.
They won't know the difference;
What's there to lose?"

Jenny asked to stay
With her friends that night.
Her parents frowned
But said, "All right."

Excited, she got ready
For the big event,
But as she rushed around
Like she had no sense,

She began to feel guilty
About all the lies,
But what's a pizza, a party,
And a moonlight ride?

Well, the pizza was good,
And the party was great,
But the moonlight ride
Would have to wait

For Dan was half
Drunk by this time,
But he kissed her and said
That he was just fine.

The room filled with smoke,
And Dan took a puff.
Jenny couldn't believe
He was smoking that stuff.

Now Dan was ready
To ride to the point
But only after he
Had smoked another joint.

They jumped in the car
For the moonlight ride,
Not thinking that he
Was too drunk to drive.

They finally made it
To the point at last,
And Dan started trying
To make a pass.

A pass is not what
Jenny wanted at all,
And by a pass, I don't mean
Playing football.

"My parents were right...
I am too young.
Boy, how could I ever,
Ever be so dumb."

With all of her might,
She pushed Dan away.
"Please take me home,
I don't want to stay!"

Dan cranked up the engine
And floored the gas.
In a matter of seconds,
They were going too fast.

As Dan drove on
In a fit of wild anger,
Jenny knew that
Her life was in danger.

She begged and pleaded
For him to slow down,
But he just got faster
As they neared the town.

"Just let me get home!
I'll confess that I lied.
I really went out
For a moonlight ride."

Then all the sudden,
She saw a big flash.
"Oh God, please help us!
We're going to crash!"

She doesn't remember
The force of impact,
Just that everything
All the sudden went black.

She felt someone remove her
From the twisted rubble,
And heard, "Call an ambulance!
These kids are in trouble!"

Voices she heard...
A few words at best,
But she knew there were two cars
Involved in the wreck.

Then wondered to herself
If Dan was all right,
And if the people
In the other car were alive.

She awoke in the hospital
To faces so sad.
"You've been in a wreck,
And it looks pretty bad."

These voices echoed
Inside her head
As they gently told her
That Dan was dead.

They said "Jenny, we've done
All we can do,
But it looks as though
We'll lose you too."

"But the people in the other car!?"
Jenny cried.
"We're sorry, Jenny,
They also died."

Jenny prayed, "God, forgive me
For what I've done
I only wanted
To have one night of fun."

"Tell those people's family
I've made their lives dim,
And wish I could return
Their loved ones to them.

Tell Mom and Dad
I'm sorry I lied
And that it's my fault
So many have died.

Oh nurse, won't you please
Tell them for me?"
The nurse just stood there.
She never agreed.

But she took Jenny's hand
With tears in her eyes,
And a few moments later,
Jenny died.

A man asked the nurse,
"Why didn't you do your best
To bid that girl
Her one last request?"

She looked at the man
With eyes so sad.
"Because the people in the other car
Were her mom and dad."

Feel free to take some if you want